Life at the moment fucking sucks. Everyone around me is breaking up and all I want to do is tell people that I think I’m bi. All I want is a guy who is a fucking bro and can sit there and also talk about girls with me. A guy that won’t get all sappy about sex and relationships. Fuck.
I don’t know what I am. Personally I think I’m gay or bi or something. I’m usually only like sexually attracted to guys but emotionally to girls. But the thing is, I would never want a relationship with guy. Unless he acted like a straight guy. And I wouldn’t want to like kiss a guy in front of my friends. Gay guys piss me off. Like if I was to be in a relationship with a guy they would have to be a bro. Like act straight and shit. Cause I wouldn’t want to date a fag (by fag I mean like girly gay guy). Like I would wanna date a guy not a girl. But then there are points where dating a guy would be so disgraceful, to myself. How could I keep my friends and family while being bi or gay? How could I stop them from treating me differently? I just wish I was 100% straight. I wish I wanted to fuck girls.